God is truly amazing. He could not have orchestrated this evening any more perfectly! My little girl is falling in love with Jesus right before my eyes! : )
This was my Facebook status this evening. Several people have asked to hear the story behind the post.....
Josh was given two tickets to the Nationwide race at Texas Motor Speedway for tonight. He found out last night & when he called to tell me he was so sweet & offered for me to take Spencer because "I never get to get out of the house." As thoughtful as that was, & as much as I would have LOVED to take him, I just didn't feel right about it. Josh doesn't get to spend much time with the kids & NEVER any time with them alone. Plus, Josh loves NASCAR.....so it was really a no-brainer.
I had a wonderful night with the other three. They were all really good for me; the weather was great & we all just played together in the backyard until bedtime. I put Syd to bed, then Sawyer & finally Sam. Sam is never one to just get up in her bed, stay there & go to sleep. She likes to know what's going on & make sure that we are still there. I think she is going through a stage where she is a little fearful at bedtime. I certainly remember that time in my childhood.
Tonight I just happened to be walking through the hall when she got to her door & we met there. My norm would be to put her back to bed with some irritation.....but I just really felt the Lord pressing upon my heart to take some additional time to let her know how much I loved her. We don't get much uninterrupted alone time. This is where God orchestrated things so beautifully. Typically Spencer is also up running around needing some more water or for me to tuck him in again or SOMETHING. Tonight it was just her & I.
I knelt down, & told her how much I loved her & how precious she is & what things about her make her so special. I could tell that everything was going straight to her heart & she was soaking up the individual attention & specific praise she was getting. It made me a bit sad that I don't make it more of a priority to carve out more time alone with each child individually. (Although I do have to say that not all the time I spend alone with her is as precious as this time was.) It was obvious that the Spirit was really moving in both our hearts.
She started playing with my hair & just sharing her heart as I shared mine. Just sweet mother daughter conversation.
She finally sat down......I could tell that there was something stirring in her that she wanted to talk about, so I followed her lead & sat also.
We talked about how God is my Daddy & she talked about how everyone has 2 Daddy's.....one like Josh & God. We talked about how Mommy has to obey God just like she has to obey Daddy....& how if she does obey that her life will be better because Daddy knows what's best for her.
We talked about how everyone does bad things & because we do bad things that we can't go to heaven to be with God. But that God sent Jesus to die on the cross & rise again so that, if we believe that & ask him to come into our hearts that we will get to go to heaven & live with God forever.
We talked about how God is bigger than everyone & everything & how she can't wait to get to heaven & see God......but that she doesn't want to go to heaven right now.
We talked about how all the people that she loves that have Jesus in their hearts will be in heaven after they die & how we will all be together again.
I think you get the picture......we really talked about alot of stuff.
Then she wanted to know more about how Jesus comes into your heart. I explained to her about the Holy Spirit & how we can feel it when he talks to us & we went through the basics of the gospel again. She told me that she felt Jesus speaking to her & when I asked her what he was saying, she said that he wanted to come into her heart & wanted her to be in heaven with him one day.
I felt the Holy Spirit prompting me to walk through the "prayer of salvation." She was so excited when we got done! She overwhelmed me with joy!
We talked about how important reading the Bible & memorizing scriptures is. We talked about how she can talk to Jesus when she is scared or hurt. Etc, etc.....
Whether or not she is truly saved, I honestly do not know. I can't know to what extent she truly understands that she is a sinner & that she needs Christ to save her. I can't know if the Holy Spirit is living inside her & convicting her heart.....right now.....though I do think that fruit will come, even at such an early age.
What I do know is that she is falling in love with Jesus. I know that she is extremely interested in spiritual things & that she can offer up an innocent blind faith that I am not capable of doing. Not sure anything could be more exciting than that.
I love that little girl! She is amazing & such a huge inspiration in my walk! I am so blessed to have a child with such an amazing heart.