Seriously......I can't imagine another birthday being as depressing as this one. Ya ya ya.....it's just a number.......You're only as old as you act.....blah blah blah. None of that means squat when you are facing the big 3-0! I just can't believe it's here. It makes me feel all grown up. Like a real adult. You would think having 4 kids would have taken care of that but it just hasn't. Sometimes I wake up & think, "am I really in charge of all these kids? Like, to not just take care of them but teach them about Jesus, & life & character & all that other important stuff? I always remember people like that having it all together & being so mature." Just doesn't feel real sometimes.
And then reality hits me like a freight train when I look in the mirror & see that gravity has already left its pretty little imprint on my body. THIS my dear friends is not a happy realization. But, I then remind myself that beauty is fleeting & a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. And I am able to rejoice once again!
I feel so blessed, at the age of 30, to have all that I do. To God be the glory!
I attended The Great Marriage Experience this weekend at my church. It was good......but even before I have had much time to process all that was taught, it was such a huge affirmation of where God has taken Josh & I over the past 7 years.
I think it would be safe to tell you that Josh & I had a very rocky first 5 years of marriage. There were several instances where I honestly didn't think the marriage was going to make it. Close family & my best friends could certainly testify to the fact that we did not have a "good" marriage.
Thankfully, the bad has turned to good as a supernatural transformation of our marriage has taken place. I was AMAZED when the speakers went through things that we should be doing to have a great, lasting marriage & we were already doing SOOO many of them. God has sooo blessed our marriage & I am just so grateful for a wonderful, teachable, loving husband who has humbled his heart before the Lord.
On my 30th birthday I will celebrate a wonderful marriage & an amazing husband. I will celebrate 4 incredible children who fill my life with joy. I will celebrate awesome parents who have been such a HUGE blessing in my life & to whom I am so grateful for the example of perseverance. I will celebrate a group of friends that I can share my heart with & do life with. And finally, and most importantly I will celebrate the fact that 10 years ago Christ came into my life & turned it upside down & inside out & that he now resides in my heart & is Lord over my life! Hallelujah!
I am truly truly blessed on this 30th birthday!
Happy Birthday to me!